sorry for the long hiatus...i had to take care of some shit to prevent bizarre posts like the previous two...but i'm back. and i won't get all freaky on you for a while, i hope. only fun fun fun.
so allow me to express myself for a brief moment.
it's a real bummer when you cannot escape your past. when anything you do that seems a bit out of the ordinary leads the people in your life to point fingers and accuse you of doing something you did years and years ago. i guess i will always be a junky to many of the people who know me. and that's a damn shame. i know it's probably better to let all this stuff out of the bag AFTER your career has taken off, but what the hell. at least it's out of the way for me, right? many kids come out here and get record deals and then get all fucked up because they have never experienced that life before. i'm a much better investment because i HAVE, and not in a hollywood bullshit glamourous way. ain't nothing glamourous about it, folks, and that's the truth.
so here i am, drinking my coffee and cursing the fact that no matter how far i travel, whatever i might accomplish, however i may grow and have grown, the thought will always "cross peoples' minds" that perhaps my decisions and actions are motivated not by my own will but as a result of my drug-addled brain. and that sucks.