i think i might have messed up. i ignored a speeding ticket right before i went on tour over the summer. and i just found it when i was cleaning out an old purse. hmm...ok...first thing monday morning...
i had a dream last night that i was at the home of this guy i went out with a couple times and he was with his current girlfriend. it was a huge house and he was having a party with a whole bunch of people and i wanted to be there, even though it was completely uncomfortable. in fact, someone was laying on the floor and then he started throwing up. some people took him into a bedroom and the party went on. i was looking at a magazine with photos of the guy whose party it was - it was some society magazine - one of those rags about people who don't really do anything but have magazines devoted to them because they are rich and "upstanding" members of the community. like "the hamptons"...i was watching him with his girlfriend having fun at their party and as much as i thought it was a scene i had no interest in, i was jealous. maybe of her and their relationship. but maybe of him and his life of priveledge. i don't know. i had a wallet and purse on my lap. the wallet had a lot of money in it. but i didn't know whose wallet and money it was. i turned to the people around me and kept asking if anyone knew who the stuff belonged to. no one knew. so i held onto it.
my credit card info became outdated. my bill was unpaid. i knew this. i chose to ignore it. it was $8.95. i don't know why i didn't just update my credit card info. chose to let them suspend my blog account instead. um, did i mention it was $8.95? ya. definitely wasn't the cash that was an issue...i don't know what that was all about. was it my big rebellion of 2005? maybe. ("NO! i'm NOT pulling my credit card out of my wallet and updating my info! that takes THREE MINUTES!!! NO WAY!")
but here i am. back.
and i will continue to pay my blogging bills and try not to disappear on you again.