the title of this blog is anyone's guess.

so i'm on myspace, trying to write a one-line update to describe my feelings this morning.
i settle on "can't believe 2001 was 7 years ago" without much thought, and then it's time to choose a descriptive word to capture my mood.

the list is long - everything from "sad" to "contemplative" to "insignificant" to "jedi" (whatever that truly means is anyone's guess) and every word has a corresponding animated smiley face emoticon.

i choose "thoughtful" and get a little yellow winking smiley. totally inappropriate for my "remembering september 11th" state of mind. why do they force these smileys on us? i want to be thoughtful or contemplative or grateful or pensive without looking like i'm mocking the sentiment.
"i'm feeling 'thoughtful' wink wink!! ;)"
even "neutral" has a smiley face. can't my little yellow guy just exist without emotion? why must he emote?
it is simply his nature. and nothing i say will ever change him.

i think i've written some pretty sad blogs on september 11ths of the past.
but i'm pretty much feeling the opposite of sad today, so i'll just acknowledge the date and move along to something else.
if you feel like reading something sad or thought-provoking or contemplative, check out one of my september 11th blogs from another year.
like this one: 

A SAD SEPTEMBER 11TH BLOG FROM 2006.
back when i was miserable and the date served as a perfect vehicle for my mood.

i started a blog yesterday and it looked like this:

just in case you think you are my friend on facebook because you have been corresponding with me through the page below....

this is NOT ME!

if you would like to be my friend on facebook, go to this address:

OFFICIAL TERRA NAOMI FACEBOOK PAGE

it's really strange to think that someone has created a facebook page in my name and is pretending to be me and actually accepting friend requests and corresponding with people i know.
it really freaks me out.
whoever you are - you freak - stop it right now.

OK
now that we've settled that....

IF YOU ARE IN NYC ON SEPT 21, COME SEE ME AT JOE'S PUB!!!
it's my first nyc performance in over 2 years.
and my first time playing at joe's pub.

***
that's what i wrote yesterday.
it kind of looks like i'm inviting the freaky facebook impostor to my joe's pub gig.
that was not my intention.

today i'm thinking about this song i wrote and recorded recently.
it sounds fucking amazing.
i'm sorry for the unbridled passion, but i'm really excited.

and i'm excited about going to nyc in just over a week!

and i'm excited about this:
DECLARE YOURSELF!

and so many other things which i cannot talk about at the moment.

i'm working silently and trying to keep my big mouth shut, and i don't know if i can accurately express the level of difficulty involved in that exercise.
it's hard.
especially when i'm caffeinated.
but i will not talk about things i'm not allowed to talk about.
nope.
ok.

with non-hippy-bullshit-free-love to you all,
xox
terra

Comments

[Xavierism]

I had to remain silent on September 11th. So many emotions that were ready to flow but didn't have the exact words to match the the emotions...so I kept quiet.

I always enjoy your posts. I hope you're doing as well as can be.

*CHEERS*

[Krista (winner of myspace contest)]

Hey Terra I loved your blogs so much I came here and read them all. I know. I have no life. But I wanted to tell you that I cannot make the NYC Joe's Pub concert as I am located in bum fucked Egypt somewhere in Texas. :( aww sad face! I think you are a truly talented musician and a very interesting wise person! Looking forward to reading more! Give my guest list spot to someone else and save me one for when you come to Texas! ♥ Krista