well, not really.
but i'm thinking about california, which, of course, makes me think about california songs, and that is definitely one of the very best.
yes, it is true. just over a year after arriving in london, i am about to return to LA.
i'm mostly thrilled, and a little bit sad.
this year has been so many different things -
amazing
thrilling
disappointing
full of love
infuriating
anxiety-ridden
satisfying
frustrating
fun
enlightening
character-building
painful
exciting
excruciating
unbelievable
wonderful
embarrassing
unstable
just a few words that come to mind.
i have learned so many things.
i have become such a better artist and musician.
i have discovered who i do and do not want to be.
i have experienced some big ups and downs.
i have learned a lot about peoples' intentions and the way they treat you when they think it is beneficial/not beneficial to them.
i have learned about control and pride and selfishness and ego. (not necessarily my own)
i have learned not to be so quick to trust.
i have learned to do what is best for me, even when it is not what another person wants me to do.
i have learned that some people are actually able to separate what is best for me from what is best for them, and sincerely wish for me to pursue what is best for me, even if it is not ideal for them.
i am so excited to move forward. this past 6 months has been very difficult for me. stagnant.
not entirely, as i have written some of my best songs yet...but i am happy to be moving on to the next part of this journey.
i will miss london.
but i know i will be back very soon.
if only because there is no way in hell that i will be able to take everything back with me this time!
if i had a garage i would have a garage sale.
(isn't there a song like that?)
anyway - more later...
xox
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